Friday, October 5, 2012

Being Who I AM. Not OK in America

So Being a Lesbian in America is not as easy as some would like you to believe.  You find that working with different diversities that America has can be quite frustrating.  Working for the government you would think that you would not encounter discrimination due to your sexual orientation, right?  Hell its in the paperwork that they give you when you get hired.  Well for those of you who are out there justifying that paperwork protects you.  Oh you have no experience with the twists and turns that some people will go through to take those rights away.  So where does all this lead you ask?  Well working with people everyday I find that I have been blind to the discrimination I have encountered.  I work with people and safety.  I make sure that no one person can carry, even one component of something that could hurt another. 
         When people do not listen to my instructions I worry that they are a possible component to what could lead to something that would hurt another. I take my job very seriously and believe it or not I actually care about the people that I encounter and if they make it to where they are going or not.   Yes I know sappy.  So when I have a fellow coworker that jeopardizes this hard work that I do, it really gets to me.  I have had a coworker that has given me a hard time now for almost three years.  She would report me for saying things to people that I have never said or accused me of being rude to a person or not following procedures.  Keep in mind I am very careful how I read people and on that I interact with them appropriately.  So I have just chalked this horrible behavior of my coworker up to something that I could have done to her and not known.  So one day I asked her what I had done to her.  This was in front of other coworkers.  Her answer you ask,  "You didn't do anything I don't have to have a reason not to like you.  I just don't." Well I chocked that one up to stupidly.  Maybe she was having a bad day.  Again she decided to rear her ugly head and try to make up some stupid story about me saying something to a person that was inappropriate.  Then she was told to leave me alone.  I asked my supervisor why she keeps targeting me.  He told me it was because she was a good christian and didn't like that I am gay.  I corrected him by saying that I am a Lesbian and that should not be a reason for her to bully me.  Later that night I was told to read something while the rest of my team got to leave. 
Why in this country are we still bigoted and treat each other differently?
How the Hell am I supposed to have the same opportunities as my coworkers when I am a Lesbian?
I am a Lesbian and I am scared of my self because I see what it means.
How do I face this Discrimination?
Wake Up America.  I am the same as you, regardless of what you believe.